OMG 超愛你了！

好！從今天起，就開始使用華語了！

哇~ 這次去了臺灣，可真是不想回家的！

超級無敵愛臺灣噢~！

有的吃，有的玩，有的跳舞，有的逛街

雖然花了不少錢，但真是超過癮的耶！

不知這樣，還認識了新朋友呢！

我跟你講，會跳舞的男生。。真是我的菜！ＸＤ

開玩笑啦～但他們也真夠帥的，真是令我見了就愛！

咳。。可惜這次的行程超趕的，沒機會吃到想吃的。

沒關係！鑿冰，蠔仔面綫，雞扒，一定要等我哦！！

過了不久，我一定會回來的！

one last dance

just one more last week before we'll all break a leg on stage!

to be honest, i have to say that none of us has practised hard enough,

and needless to say, make the best out of every rehearsal.

i now have a new direction in life,

but there are just some things that i can't get over..

i'm gonna lock, i'm gonna pop and i'm gonna break.

Taiwan and dance shall help pick up my shattered heart,

and piece the pieces back together.

i've seen so much during the month of july,

about how things can just pass you if you do not pay proper attention to them.

life is all about living it to the fullest, living for your dreams, and treasuring those whom you love and love you.

yes, i did move on, and i'm now living a happier life as compared to after things happened.

it breaks my heart to see how much you've changed, or rather, how much i think you have changed.

but loving someone is accepting him for whoever he person is, am i right?

i won't know if i still have a place in your heart, or i guess you might even hate me to the bone now, but,

just want you to know that someone has always been there, quietly watching over you..

may i have the last dance with you?

SOMEONE TALK TO ME =(

am i happy or happy?

i thought this wouldn't happen again but...

OMFG HE WORE THE SHIRT THAT I BOUGHT FOR HIM!!

and i am cutting hair with suhui tomorrow..

heheheheheh okok i'm like a dog with two tails =D

Keep the faith.

i can't stop and won't stop.
我會一直在你身後默默的守護著你。
不想我，不愛我，甚至是討厭我都沒關係。
愛一個人就是要他快樂，不屬於自己也無所謂。
說我傻也好，說我笨也好。。我都不會去管。。
等到有一天覺得真的撐不下去了， 我自己就會自動離開。

看著你這麽的快樂，自己也會安心了。。

Why? 왜? 爲什麽？なぜ?

10th post about you.
Is it that difficult to let me know how you feel?
There's only one reason why i'm still feeling irritated and annoyed.
yes, i'm jealous and i'm angry. but why?
i don't know if you find me irritating and annoying but..

you're hot and you're cold
you're yes and you're no


you walked in, gave me a kiss, but stabbed me right after that.
you made me so attached to you but what happened?
all i wanna know is.. why?

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i wanna go to Korea! sg is such a sorrow land and it will always be till i finally understand how you feel..

" why is it so hard to find someone to love and someone who will love me?
stop being so playful, i wish that everytime i need someone to hug and talk to.
someone who will listen, encourage and support.
keeping too many things to yourself is a bad thing, it makes you feel more inferior and quiet
i wish i could just say everything that is inside me to someone, but where can i find the someone?
there are so many things i regretted doing, but was not given the chance to correct my mistakes
this is so unfair, when you love someone, you would stop at nothing to give the best for the other party, however, it really hurts when you know that she is just making use of you, playing with you and you know eventually she will go to another guy, yet you still would not give up on giving her the best. "

i wish i could just let you know how i feel..
i wish i could tell you that i really love you..
i wish i could ...

deep inside i'm hurting.. hurting real bad. why did i read this at such an hour where no one is there for me? i'd really want to talk to you again but i'm afraid of upsetting you.. i feel so horrible for giving you a wrong impression but i really really..

it feels like 100 knives going right through my heart. you are someone so special to me and i have never ever thought of hurting you or anything else.. i just wanted you to be happy..

who can i talk to now? i feel like grabbing my heart and pulling it out. i'd rather be an empty soul than someone like this.. ednachng..

2 Different Tears

The love you gave me was so so good,
but the pain you gave me was so so bad..

did you do this to make me feel how he was feeling?
i totally understand now how bad it was when..
mom asked me why you had stop coming over to our place..

i really really hope that one day, i can walk back up to mummy and tell her that you're coming over for the day..
that's my only wish for now i guess.. i'm blind now but, since its for you, all the more, its all worthwhile.

Doesn't seem like something that i'll say right?
it has already been 2 weeks.. and 2 weeks was a real torture to me, especially when i can't tell anybody anything..
i can't cry and i can't smile.. no matter how many times i've tried, to no avail.
there is no clear cut answer so i'm gonna wait..
i don't know, but it feels horrible when you really wanna cry and no tears can roll out..the once cry baby is now a baby with no more refill packs for tears..

i keep telling myself that i'm ok but deep inside, i know i'm not.
dreamt of you the night before and i guess i was smiling widely in my dreams..
you picked up my little hands and told me that things were gonna be ok..
gave me a peck on my forehead and a great big hug..
although it was just a dream, but it was one which i didn't wanna wake up from..
will this small but precious dream ever come back to me again?

"Lady Moon, Please bring him back to me.."

안녕하세요 저는 바보 입니다

왜 이렇게 됐지 우리 두 사람
한참을 그저 멍하니 앉아서
알면서도 차마 두려운 그 말
미안해 이제 우리 그만해

어디부터 잘못된 걸까 뭐가 그리 달랐던 걸까
우리 이제는 못난 두 사람
아무 말도 닿지 않는데 아무 힘도 될 수 없는데
그럼 그냥 이렇게 우린 끝나나요

우리 행복했잖아요 많이 사랑했잖아요
나처럼 미운 그대도 아파하고 있나요
점점 멀어져 가네요
이대로 놓지도 붙잡지도 못하고
내일 얘기하자 내일 얘기하자 우리..

어디부터 잘못된 걸까 뭐가 그리 달랐던 걸까
우리 이제는 못난 두 사람
아무 말도 닿지 않는데 아무 힘도 될 수 없는데
그럼 그냥 이렇게 우린 끝나나요

우리 행복했잖아요 많이 사랑했잖아요
나처럼 미운 그대도 아파하고 있나요
점점 멀어져 가네요
이대로 놓지도 붙잡지도 못하고
왜 이래야만 하나요 지켜온 우리 꿈들은
왜 하나같이 부서져 가나요..

우리.. 행복했잖아요 많이 사랑했잖아요
나처럼 힘든 그대도 억울하지 않나요
제발 그러지 말아요
이대로 이대로 날 떠나지 말아요..

내일 얘기하자..내일 얘기하자..
헤어지지 말자..
우리...

i'm sorry, i need to be vulgar

-edit-

ah damn, sorry if u have read my vulgarities.
im taking all of them back now coz im seriously feeling much much much better.
and i really realise something. i have always been asking people how i can become such an optimistic person.. now i know why.. thats because, i don't really care how people view me! as long as i'm happy, thats all =)

i went crazy and all, with my blood pressure hitting its highest which caused me to feel numb all over and i sorta lost my sight for a few mins. but hey! i have this super ability to switch emotions fast and think in a flash what's right and what's wrong. i guess no matter how bad it could have gotten, i would NOT EVER think of ending my life. NO WAY MAN.

but then again, if u are willing to change your ways, or i shall say, make yourself a happier person, well..... my arms are always open for u!

i'm really sorry for making people worried bout me and stuff.. but hey again, such an eye opener. well, i guess i'm back to the old cheery happy edna again! hard to knock me down i guess? i don't have a strong ego, but i do have a very positive mindset. ok i don't expect u to change.. maybe just a sorry from u? or words that would harm people less? yup i guess thats all i can ask for~

and i'd like to thank all those who have stood by me but not those who have given me empty promises tho i guess u guys would never get to see this.

to sum things up, this might sound stupid but, i still do love u =)

笑不出的小丑

心碎了。翅膀也破了。到底有谁能来把以前的我找回来呢？
难道真的回不了头了吗？我的魂到底在哪儿。。
今天已哭了5次。眼都红了，肿了。。
此时此刻只想抱着个人，痛快地哭一场。
好想睡一觉，至少醒来了，心情也大概会好些。

쩜쩜 멀어저 가네요
이대로 널 떠나지마라요
내일 얘기하자.. 헤어지지말자.. 우리..

记得我爱你

“嘀嗒嘀嗒响你的声音，想起未来过去。。”

最近我想我们也开始疏远了。不知为何他连看我一眼都是一件少见的事情。走路时，连头都抬不起来；面对不了他，面对不了世界，面对不了自己。在来到学校的路上，我心里只想着一件事；他那可爱灿烂的笑容。“当你的眼睛眯着笑， 当你喝可乐当你吵。。我想对你好你重来不知道。。”

今天早上你问我为何最近呢么的安静。我真的不能解释但是我能够说的，是为了你。。

说真的，这个他的确是个不同的他。为了他，自己也放下了很多事， 为的只是想和他有多一点相处的时间。我经常不做的都做了，不说的都说了。最后为的，只是想要他能看我多一眼，想我多一天。

我真的累了。我三番四次的对自己说“别放弃！” 但我开始也找不到这个坚持下去的毅力。有人说：“时间能恢复一切”但照我来看，时间正在拉开我们的距离。“你在一公尺之外的世界，一辈子回不了的源点，我正才发现你离我有多么远”

是我的错。都是我的错。我不要求原谅，最好有谁能来巴我一巴掌，把握打醒好了。

总告诉自己，千千万万不能让天空下雨，因为一旦下了雨，雨就会大得连他都看不见。现在我还能挽回吗？这个赛跑不管是胜海失败，我都得完成它。至少有一天我能告诉自己，我尽力了。被爱伤也不能投降。。

在我心底，还是你最珍贵。。

the unspoken, the untold.

25 minutes of kisses, 25 minutes today.
such a whirlpool, such a flurry.
someone's gotta get out there to save me from it, right?
actions do speak louder than words, but words do act as an important catalyst too.

听不到，看不见，摸不清，想不透。
为何双面有那么大的一个差别呢？
我十番四次的告诉自己无论如何都不能糟蹋自己。。
但有何用呢? 心里想着一套，手脚做的又是另一套
自己根本不想这样。。真的不想这样。。
最近饭都吃不下，话也说不出。。
在此时此刻，多希望你能了解我的感受。。
爱情这东西，真是要了我的命。。
不想理会都得理。。

多希望我是个瞎子、聋子。
看不见也听不到，那该多好啊。。
至少伤心时，不需要面对面前的一切

这么复杂。。谁能救救我呀。。